[Rhys takes in a breath when he actually gets a response, steadying himself as much as he can. Guilt wells up again at the sound of the bard's voice, and when he speaks again, it's quiet but emphatic.]

I don't know what happened, but I never would have. Not like that. I changed somehow, couldn't control myself. Didn't want to.

I woke up a while later and it was all sort of a blur.